Heaven is not a distant place.
Heaven is a state of mind.
Very hard to explain in your language or to your understanding.
So therefore it is with you all the time.
Most don't go there until they leave their physical body.
Then your state of mind (consciousness) is where you are (who you are) .
Then you will be able to be anywhere you want - anything you want - always.
Heaven will be whatever you are looking for it to be.
Heaven is also everything you've never consciously thought it could be.
So rest at ease, they didn't leave you.
They are not far away.
Heaven is so close you can sometimes feel them --